FUEL THAT FIRE!!!

As I stop and think back to the day (well not the exact day, I have a horrible memory for dates) I made the decision to change the way I treated my body, I still feel that same determination today. For me, I get so caught up in the "process" that I forget to reflect and recall why I started this fitness thing in the first place. 

Weight wasn't a problem for me until 1993, up until that time I was always between a size 7 and 9 and a weight between 125 and 135lbs. After 93, I don't know what happened. I was a stay at home mom not doing too much on the activity side which was a huge shock to my body. Growing up I was into EVERYTHING! Gymnastics, track, cheerleading, bowling, tennis, and hiking.   But after 93, all that ended and the weight just consumed me. Now, every now and again I would find it in me to drop some weight but the motivation never lasted and I would gain what I had lost and 10lbs more. Try doing that over a couple of decades and you've got all sorts of ridiculous weight to carry around. To go from 125 to 300+ lbs... I'm shaking my head as I type this. People always ask why I say 300+ pounds and not give an exact number? Well, it's because at one point my doctor told me I was 297lbs and at that point I refused to step on a scale again, but I'm 1000% positive I gained an additional 15-25lbs after that weigh in; if not more. I didn't want to know. I didn't EVER want to hear 3hundred and.....anything! Ignorance was certainly bliss on one hand and slowly killing me on the other. 

It was just 2 years ago that I really was able to get a handle on this weight thing. It started with a spiritual change which lead to a change in my perception of myself, others, and life in general. That was the point in which I was determined to rid myself of that old Kim and create a new Kim. That was my focus and what drove me then. Now, my determination and focus comes from really loving life, fitness, and desire to see just what the future Kim has in store. :-) 

I'm still dealing with weight loss pitfalls and struggles. It's not like just because you lose a significant amount of weight that you are done working. That NEVER stops! I'm constantly setting goals and working to accomplish them. This is a lifelong change that will require your attention until you decide you no longer care and you stop or you die. I only have control over one of those options and quitting is not a trait embedded in my DNA. 

Though it is not easy, you have to keep going! Find whatever it is within you that got you started and will keep you going! Don't let your life be cluttered with things or people that stall your goals and keep you from being a better and healthier you! And when you need that motivation or extra push, CREATE IT FOR YOURSELF!!! All extra pushes from outside sources is gravy....You've got this! 

~me