RE-REFOCUSED!!! SMH...

Last night I hit the mitts for the first time in a VERY long time. I have to tell you that I was so disappointed in myself and my declining wind. My hands may have gotten faster, I may be more fluid with changing from conventional to south paw, but my conditioning has truly suffered. It's probably from my focus on lifting more than engaging in cardio. What am I saying probably...that's exactly what it is! Can't even entertain lying to myself for feelings sake. I was running a lot of miles in decent time and I just stopped to weight train!!! The pads opened my eyes!

When I got home last night, I could barely sleep. Here I have accepted a fight for May, then I give up all the cardio gains I worked so hard for?!?!? What was I thinking!?!?!? Phucking idiot!!! I mean I should have kept both and built up both; strength and wind! I've done it before and I'm about to do it again!!! I just lost focus. I lost focus worrying about all the wrong things. My fault none the less. No one or thing or things should have that type of power or ability to pull me that far left. Well, as of 12am this morning, when I walked out of the gym, I have recliamed my power and will continue my lifting splits, running, and boxing my heart out!!! I may not be able to lift 405lbs but it's okay for now! 

I have to shred fat with cardio and weight training. I have to increase my wind capacity with hard cardio. Boxing and running will be that hard cardio! I have to gain strength and build muscle with weight training which I'm currently doing so I'm halfway there! Welcome back cardio!

This process is about to be off the chain!!! Will it be easy? Hell no! I've been here before with this the same trainer and at times I hated his guts! He put me through hell in training, but I also did the same for him (I guess payback is a Biiiach)!!!! It's actually a beautiful thing! When you are pushed and give all that you have within you while training, what you have to do in the ring becomes more clear and more easily attainable.  

I'm really very excited about my plan and I will emerge victorious!!! I can literally visualize my results. We all know I'm trying to unleash my inner super hero WonderWoman, and that is exactly what is about to happen!!! There are many that doubt my abilities and that makes this journey even better! The doubters merely sit on the sidelines talking ishT, fat as hell, winded and wounded, while I continuously show and prove. Now,  WATCH MY WORK!